To me, it doesn't mean anything. Going to a fun bar, having a cute guy buy me a drink, having everyone's attention on me, in a hot pair of shoes and a sexy top.. Those things are way too pointless to me.
For me, what is meaningful is having a friend or two over for some beers and video games. Having just one person that loves me unconditionally. Being in my hoodie and sweat pants. That's what real is to me.
Some might say, "Why would you want to live your life so unattractively?" But you know, what's the point of trying to look beautiful on the outside when your heart feels so insecure? What's the point of having all these guys' attention when the one you'll end up home with will leave you cold in your bed the next morning and never call you again? What's the point of letting yourself be surrounded by a lot of people when none of them will be there when you really need them?
Why don't we all try to find the security within ourselves instead of searching for it in such meaningless things?
