There's nothing I can do for you anymore. I can barely take care of myself yet I have another person that I need to embrace with my heart. So how can there be any room in my heart to spare you? You can blame me all you want, and hate me all you want. But still there's nothing I can do for you. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

David and I met because he was performing in a play based on short stories I'd written. He was playing a character I had invented, which is somewhat telling. In desperate love, it's always like this, isn't it? In desperate love, we always invent the characters of our partners, demanding that they be what we need of them, and then feeling devastated when they refuse to perform the role we created in the first place.

Eat, Pray, Love - Elizabeth Gilbert

"Beware when the great God lets loose a thinker on this planet."

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Where are they now? I have no idea. They all come and go. At the time it feels like the end of the world, but we all survive. I wish they're all happy wherever they are. That's the beautiful thing about memories. No matter how terrible the ending was, it's the good ones that we remember more clearly.

And she told me about a youth who had fallen in love with a planet. He stood by the sea, stretched out his arms and prayed to the planet, dreamed of it, and directed all his thoughts to it. But he knew, or felt he knew, that a star cannot be embraced by a human being. He considered it to be his fate to love a heavenly body without any hope of fulfillment and out of this insight he constructed an entire philosophy of renunciation and silent, faithful suffering that would improve and purify him. Yet all his dreams reached the planet. Once he stood again on the high cliff at night by the sea and gazed at the planet and burned with love for it. And at the height of his longing he leaped into the emptiness toward the planet, but at the instant of leaping "it's impossible" flashed once more through his mind. There he lay on the shore, shattered. He had not understood how to love. If at the instant of leaping he had had the strength of faith in the fulfillment of his love he would have soared into the heights and been united with the star.

"Love must not entreat," she added, "or demand. Love must have the strength to become certain within itself. Then it ceases merely to be attracted and begins to attract..."

Demian - Hermann Hesse

Thank You

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord..."

Jeremiah 29:11-14



Just what I needed.